Devious thoughts of the day...

Hug

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 00:33:10 GMT

This story had put a tear into my eye. It's very awe-inspiring ...and I like anybody who reads my lj to see it for themselves.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=vr3x_RRJdd4

hmm

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 21:12:30 GMT

Well it apparently seems like I'm not the only one that someone had logged onto my WoW account and stole my information...

http://www.worldofwarcraft.com/index.xml

I'm a bit wary about how much I will have left on my character...but really I don't care as long as I get my account back!!!! I'm going to start a new and such...and probably knowing in my case will have to buy a new account on WoW...I'm quite wary about this as well. Avry took me forever to get to 60...so I'm not sure what's going to happen.

I cry a little in the inside.

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 06:57:47 GMT

Ah I will never get any more annoying random sayings from the guy who is stalking me on the internet. This is friends only lj for now on! Hopefully it works :)

hugs to me!

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 03:08:52 GMT

I like myself...this makes me happy! :D

AUGH I HATE YOU FAKE EX!

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 03:27:28 GMT

I'm incredibly pissed off!!! Okay...this guy who is pretending to be my ex is sending me emails saying he misses me and all that...then sends msn messages with me to Nick!!!! The messages say stuff that I miss my ex and wish I never left blah blah blah...

SO UNTRUE!!! Joel and I are finished!!! FINISHED!!!!!! We hardly even see each other anymore! And he also says bullshit about my new boyfriend Todd!!!! Todd and I are just friends... I hate how good my life gets and something as stupid as this just pisses me of...

On a good note, it's going to rain shortly ...we needs rain!

Someone put it out!!!

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 03:25:40 GMT

Wow...just wow...was at work today and this morning I swear I smelled forest fire. It was quite a dull smell but I smelled it none the less....

Throughout the day it kept getting stronger and stronger....I walked from the washroom to the Washery (part of plant where coal gets cleaned) and it was raining ash...

Worried, I walked all the way up to the 7th floor (it's quite high >>) and went out ontop the deck thingy. Usually you could see the mountains from that point, but all I saw was smoke and a red haze on the horizon.

I think I just heard yet another water bomber plane go by...

These fires are ridiculous and scary! I read in the newspaper that there was 650+ fires in BC and 450 of them were caused by human carelessness. Stupid!!!!

Fire scares me, but forest fires are way worse!!! Now there's supposed to be a thunderstorm tonight...great...more fire starters.

That's my rant of the month...or day? >>

LIVE ACTION TRANSFORMERS!!!!!

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 23:43:59 GMT

clicka!!!! --> http://www.transformersmovie.com/

Mon, 26 Jun 2006 10:28:53 GMT

So...had a funfilled weekend of Nick-De-time. We both realize that we are slowly drifting apart...I blame the long distance. In a ways I expected something to go wrong for my previous relationship (also long distance) did not work out at all.

In times where a friend comes to me and talks about problems that is so severe that they don't know what to do...I get all numb. I know from my own personal experience that in order to fix your own problems it's best to figure it out on your own. Sure people who you're close to opinion's do help occasionally...but in the end it is up to yourself. I really do wish though I could be less of a selfish person and actually open up to people when it comes to their problems. All I can really offer is what I learned throughout my life so far and nothing more really.

I guess Nick isn't a camping person ...then again Long Lake is probably one of the worse lakes I've ever been to. Hopefully if there is a next time it'll be near the river where it's cleaner and has less people. I got lots of pictures of dragonflies! That was interesting...they kept on having dragonfly orgies. I was intrigued (Imma perv)

Formated my computer with Nicks help (actually he's the one who formated for me...). It's all shiny and new in the inside...still have to activate Windows...but it's not letting me...*sigh* I'll figure it somehow...I have 30 days to do so. So far all I have on my computer is windows xp, msn messenger, my NEW and SHINY logitech keyboard driver thingy, video card driver...aaaand...currently putting WoW onto my shiny formated compy. I feel weird...never formated a computer before...whee...

oh yeah Vicki...I finally got the squishy wrist support thingy I love o so much!!!! I R HAPPY!!! Bestest ever! My squishy frog is nice but kept falling down...shiny keyboard + squishy wrist support=happy me!

Went to see System of a Down June 25th night...it was Nick's first heavy rock concert I think...my second. Still the same amount of booze/cigarettes/marijuana as ever...this one girl though (I should say woman...) was pissed out of her mind I'm sure of it cause she kept punching Nick on his arm and pushing him...so I switched spots with him (he went on the other side of me so I was next to her) and she did the same to me. I told her to stop it and then she got really really pissed off. Kept yelling right in my face (her nose was squished up against my cheek) "f off you f'ing skank, you have no f'ing blah blah blah something with a lot of f words...blah blah"....I told her "I'm here for the concert not you!" Then she got so close with her face and her screaming at me I had to push her face away from mine...(of course I'm seething in the inside at this point but I wanted to desperately try to enjoy the concert...) then she kept waving her arms in front of my face...with a cigarette in hand...I was so worried that it would eventually burn me or something.
Then all of a sudden she said "Sorry babe, I never meant to act like that" or to that extent and then kissed me on the cheek and rubbed my head...

UUUUUGHGHGHGHGHGHGHGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH! I hate drunk people...especially women!!!!!! RAWR!

On a good note I'm losing weight...well more of "toning up" I started off the summer with 125 lbs ...now I'm between 115 and 118...I was told that I have toned up from a month ago...that's a good thing right?

Three night shifts coming up...aaaah. Life is good so far :)

Work

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 06:57:40 GMT

Well...yesterday's shift was interesting. Bus was late for an hour...then I found out as soon as I got to work that I could of stayed home with a days pay... (if it's later than 10 minutes, I get the day off w/pay!).

argh.

Then the plant kept shutting down ...first cause one of the belts shut down (the main one...) and then cause not enough magnetite...I hosed my little butt off that's for sure!!!!

So yeah...I lvld my rogue alt to 18 today yay...now for sleep...argh. I'm going to be tired yet again at work -_-

Best. ever. :D

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 08:15:38 GMT

http://www.newgrounds.com/portal/view/316541

O_O

Mon, 29 May 2006 07:30:08 GMT

*takes a deep breath*

*huuuuuff*

OMGUH I'M IN ANIMATION AT EMILY CARR INSTITUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Whew...

So yeah! I'm going to Vancouver next year! I have a place to stay (my uncles basement..only $700/mo! w/utilities!!!!)

I'm so happy I can cry!

Some Good news...

Fri, 26 May 2006 05:19:24 GMT

dun dun duuuun!

I got into VC! FINALLY! Now to wait on Emily Carr to see if I got into animation..if I did...then goodbye acad!

My Frankie Boy

Thu, 25 May 2006 01:55:44 GMT

Unfortunately as of today, May 24th 2006 at 3pm Frankie Dence was put down due to complications of cancer. He suffered in the end so we had to put him to sleep.

Frankie, you were my world and we will all miss you.

Frankie

Wed, 24 May 2006 18:11:23 GMT

I am going to the vet today...hopefully they can help Frankie. He's doing really really badly...he's shaking all over and not drinking at all. I try feeding him by syringe but he's not swallowing much. He has tons of discharge around his nose and eyes...and I'm afraid this is a bacterial infection (they don't really get viral infections).

I'm afraid this time for sure...he's dying. I want to go to Calgary to see my regular vet but I'm afraid that I can't. I took work off today so I can see the vet here in Edson...they said they'll try their best to see what they can do for a guinea pig...

I love the little guy. I don't want to lose him.

Root canal....

Tue, 09 May 2006 21:03:26 GMT

So yeah. Got my root canal done this morning. Was quite uncomfy with the whole fact my jaw was open from 7:45am up till 10am...rawr! I don't want to open my mouth for a while now! (I know...gasp! deanna not having her mouth open is the starting of an apocolypse or something!).

Before the needle thingy I got the nitrous oxide done...aka. laughing gas. WOOOOOEEEEEE! It sure felt like I drank a few too many! The room wasn't spinning...but I felt like I wasn't of this world! I'm never getting drunk -_-;;

It's a bit sore right now...and I don't really care to go into detail on the whole ordeal of the killing of my tooth. (for that's what a root canal does afterall) Brenna suggested that we go for karaoke tonight...not sure if I'm up to it at this moment but we'll see later...maybe I'll feel a bit better? Who knows?

All I know is that I'm never going to stop flossing!! EVER.

Teeeeeeth :(((

Fri, 05 May 2006 15:51:50 GMT

So yeah...I have a tooth problem. Actually I have many teeth problems...but the main problem is my upper right one...it's causing me tremendous pain...so I eventually went to the dentist. They told me that I need a root canal (basically kill the tooth before it infects the rest of my teeth). It's scheduled next Tuesday.

I R SCARED!

:((

An update on Frankie...

Thu, 04 May 2006 03:51:53 GMT

He's doing much better. Apparently he's a bit anemic...so he can't reproduce red blood cells as fast as normal guineas. He is also having problems with his liver...but so far so good!

Not sure how long he has...but I sure hope that whatever is causing him discomfort goes away and I have him FOREVER!!!! Yeah...right...well Frankie is an expensive guinea afterall. (spent well over $800 on him...)

So yeah! On another bad note...my teeth HURT A LOT! I'm seeing the dentist tomorrow...so hopefully they can fix it :(

Frankie

Tue, 02 May 2006 19:22:50 GMT

It's a very sad day for me...I went to the vet today to find out that Frankie does not have much time to live. He apparently lost a lot of weight over the past two weeks, and I get to find out about his bloodwork tomorrow. They're keeping him overnight to see how he is doing. I really hope that someone is there overnight with him...I don't want him to be lonely.

When Frankie's vet told me that he's not doing too well, I broke apart. I love the little guy, and he is the world to me. He's always been there whenever I needed a good hug from a fuzzy critter (Albel eats me). I'm really not sure what to do right now...all I want to do is sleep.

I lost many pets before, and both my vet and I knew that the time for him would come sooner than most guinea pigs...but I'm very torn apart. I don't know what to do without him. Of course I'll keep on living, but Frankie means a lot to me.

I love you Frankie, and I'll miss you.

-_-

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 00:29:13 GMT

Well...sorta working on portfolio now...(due this monday...). An online friend sent me a time card number for coh/cov...so now I can play that again! Happy me...although I have to finish my portfolio...

I played a bit with CAD artist...Tim Buckley on COV! We even have a sg for it too! Quite interesting to say the least :D

Now for my 2point perspective drawing...

FOOO!

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 03:03:31 GMT

Got my income tax return...

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All my loans are now officially paid off.

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This will be the first summer I don't have to pay off my loans (besides the government one...I'll pay that after schooling is done)

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$3900 FOO!

gaspage

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 03:05:12 GMT

Omguh...System of a Down is coming back to Calgary and Edmonton this summer!!! I SO HAVE TO GO!!! And there's Phantom of the Opera...and Disturbed...and our lady peace...

SO MUCH STUFF SO LITTLE MONIES!

gag

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 19:56:04 GMT

Do you know that feeling of vomit in the back of your throat? Yeah...I got that. I'm nervous. I honestly don't want to be alone, but it seems that I'm my most content when I am. I tend to hurt others by what means I have no idea, but it seems to me that people want to hang around me less and less as I get older. I'm not sure what part of me is changing...but I think I am. For better? For worse??? Who knows.

I find lately that I've been very very obsessed with world of warcraft. I feel that people on there can't hurt me (although there is an occasional person I can't stand...) and I can't hurt them. The fact I'm not around them kind of comforts me, yet I can "talk" to them through means of interactivity. (It also doesn't help that I'm obsessed with the game). I'm not sure if this obsession is healthy or not (probably not...), and I don't know if I need help...but I feel my utmost content(ness) when I'm playing on my computer. My patience level for people is ZERO and I can't even stand myself most of the time!

Apathy is a way to go for me it seems. It's not only because of the people around me that makes me worry, hurt, or whatnot....but it's also myself. I feel very disappointed with my life thus far and nothing seems to be going as I would like it to. If I don't get into Emily Carr or VC I'm not sure what I'm going to do. Maybe odd jobs? Become a permanent temp? Who knows. I know a lot of people would be disappointed with me if I go and waste all their time and money by saying "screw it" and give up on what I want.

What do I want? Alas, this is unknown for me as well...At this moment all I really need is well...a hug. I want someone to tell me that everything is going to be okay and that I'm not a big screw up as I think I am. As odd as this sounds I want to feel depressed....rather than the vomity icky feeling of sickness in my heart (and the back of my throat). I want to throw my hands in the air and scream all my agony into abyss. That won't help really. But it'll be a release for me....

Release from my pain that I have NO idea what it is exactly. I'm very lonely I think and all I can see is happiness coming from my computer for the people talking to me on WoW won't leave me. I have a terrible tendency of shoving people away from my life. I guess even though after years of being bullied and having only one true friend in elementary....junior high...highschool....I'm not used to people. I'm very awkward (sp?) with talking to people...I'm always nervous on what I'm going to say to make myself look...stupid.

So yeah, there's my big rant (would you call it a rant???). I have no idea what to do at all. I have no idea what to do with my relationship with Nick now...it seems we're drifting apart and all I can really do is blame myself (such as I did with my previous relationship). I live in the past and I really have to stop it and face the present as well as look into the future. All in all...I need to grow up.

Eagle cam!

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 15:58:21 GMT

I was talking to my aunt one night and then she shared this link with me...

http://www.infotecbusinesssystems.com/wildlife/

Watch the birdy!

worry

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 17:26:59 GMT

Well I slept in again...and am missing anatomy as I type...I hope that Nick knows to come here at lunch...sorry!

Worried about Frankie...he hurt his leg and seems to be in pain. He is getting better but doesn't like to step on it...I have an appointment at the vet today at 2:40pm. So here's hoping it's nothing too serious!

A penny for a thought...

Tue, 04 Apr 2006 22:32:09 GMT

Well I've been thinking...I honestly think I'm losing inspiration as an artist. I'm not very sure how or why, but I draw only when I have to. And even then they seem quite...plain. I don't feel inspired to jump up and start drawing or anything...it's quite depressing.

I just had to say this out loud...I hope things get better but lately it's been getting worse and worse...

...

bah.

Devious thoughts of the day...

Hug

hmm

*hugs to me!*

AUGH I HATE YOU FAKE EX!

Someone put it out!!!

LIVE ACTION TRANSFORMERS!!!!!

Work

Best. ever. :D

O_O

Some Good news...

My Frankie Boy

Frankie

Root canal....

Teeeeeeth :(((

An update on Frankie...

Frankie

-_-

FOOO!

*gaspage*

*gag*

Eagle cam!

*worry*

A penny for a thought...

hugs to me!

gaspage

gag

worry